087 The Frame Stays Level
Lyrics
if i want tomorrow
i let the body handle it
close the room
go under
wake in a version
i wasn’t ready to carry
if i want an hour
i put water on
stand in the kitchen
wait for the window to darken
by the time the steam lifts clear
the hour has already crossed
if i want the present
i do nothing at all
hands quiet
mouth shut
but stillness doesn’t hold a moment
it only makes the passing easier to hear
i’m counting the distance in habits
not in miles
same cup
same chair
same light moving on the wall
i call it forward
the frame stays level
i never saw the gate
i’m a time traveler
who never left the room
no machine
no break in the glass
just the day thinning around me
i thought i was deciding
i was mostly catching up
to what had already taken shape
the problem isn’t movement
the problem is arrival
i always
get there
eventually
three years disappear
the moment i get used to them
people call that growth
sometimes it is
sometimes it’s oxidation
a surface holding
while something underneath
changes first
i try to let memory rest
archive it
stop opening the file
but every return revises the record
to fit the state i’m in
i don’t recover the scene
i produce a cleaner version
and call that memory
moving on
is useful language
good for getting through a week
good for answering messages
but what stays
doesn’t always stay loud
sometimes it lowers into the structure
and waits there
i replay the scene
to correct the angle
trim the sentence
move the blame
but i never change the event
only the shape it takes in me
clarity comes late
like most things
after the room has emptied
after the tone has settled
after it can no longer help
in real time
holding on
is not the opposite of losing
it’s losing
with more contact
more detail
more delay
maybe it wasn’t travel
just the same contact
making a deeper line
if i want anywhere
i wait
that has always been the method
no map in hand
no lever to pull
just the body agreeing
to the next version
nothing opens
nothing announces it
the frame shifts
i arrive
still
eventually
exactly
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